Wanderer

Wanderer

As small as a child I was forbidden to soar Through the breath of very nature  Thus barred my feet: yet my eyes not and they wander through every hill and  cloud Searching for something.I know not....Beyond every horde of mortals I  look out for thee In the land of hopes and dreams: a fantasy Where words are  silenced The heart overwhelmed Torments of thoughts, still none to speak of....  My expecting eyes, but lips sewn Yes.I perceive the anguish in your eyes  Wondering, wishing something to be told But my feelings are beyond any word  The silence creeps deep within And yet I hear your 'voice' The eyes dazed,  I'm seeing you with my inner eyes...That long to perceive the golden hue  But that is never found And they wander lonely as a bird: my eyes Under  azure stretches of sky.... Nabanita Paul

Jealousy has never been a positive for me. Jealousy towards others shows distrust. 
When you are Jealous because of others talents then you are telling yourself that you're 
not good enough. This poem makes me Jealous. I'm not Jealous in the way that I don't
 think i can write something this good. I'm jealous because this poem being as short as 
it is has over a hundred different meanings. I'm jealous because this poem in all its 
grandeur is written by the soul. like a caged bird not being able to spread its 
wings and fly through all natures beauty. The wanderer dreamed of things unknown.
 The wanderer wished on stars through its cold bars. The wanderer looks at things 
at a different angle, seeing things that others don't. believing in things that cant be 
seen or heard. The wanderer is always looking for the perfect sky to take flight. 
The wanderer is always dreaming. Seeing things with the soul.

This is for you.....

This is for you.....

This is for you.....

you know who you are

if you don't have a single clue

this is just not the poem for you

This is for you.....

This is for all the broken hearts

This is for all the caged birds

This is for all the birds to afraid to fly

through the open cage door

This is for you

This is for all the fallen tears

This is for all who weep

This is for all who are seeking

something to believe in

something to hold

something to care about

Something to hope for

This is for you

This is for all the scars

This is for meaningless love

This is for all who wish on stars

This is for all the wasted efforts

This is for you

This is for all the stitches

This is for all the doubts

This is for all who close there eyes

who imagine something more

Something worth living for

This is for you

This is for the dreamers 

This is for the Believers

This is for not giving up

This is for not quiting

This is for still believing

This is for you


so keep the faith
keep the hope
keep believing
keep the dream
fly through the cage door
its open
you just have to leap

So this is for those who keep living

This is for you

This is for you :>

Ghandhi well here it is

CURIOSITY DIDN'T QUITE KILL THAT CAT

sometimes its hard to think. its hard to play by the rules. why must i talk a certain way and look a certain way. no one is the same and everyone has their own voice. why must i keep my mouth shut to an opinion. why must i keep my head down and eyes closed. be curious and find yourself. i keep forgetting to be myself. I am me and that is who i am. i cannot be anyone else. if i choose to change i will still be me. i can be who i want to be and still be myself. when will we own ourselves completely? a lot of us don't even know who we really are. we search for ourselves for years and find nothing. why not look in the mirror. how come we have to have others tell us who we are? shouldn't we know ourselves? were all lost in the dark forest trying to find that one thing. that one thing is different for all of us. no one is on the same path. were all running for that finish line. well most of us. i guess  some are walking or crawling. but isn't that life. to breath air and not  know where you 're headed. don't go through the fog. turn on the head lights. its hard to think. its hard to be ourselves and speak up. its even harder when we don't know who we are.  be yourself, be who you wanna be and it wont be the last time I'll see the light. life cannot be measured, cannot be stored and should never make you bored. life is a gift and it should be exciting, happy, joyfully, wonderful, fulfilling, along with the stupid crummy gloom-ed days.
Just Live Life
its that simple

Burn....

Ordinary World -  Levetanna lives in Wyoming and works at a furniture store. she wakes up at the same time every morning and goes out running till she reaches her small shop. Levetanna has never lived outside of Wyoming and has worked for the same company for five years.

Call to Adventure- and Refusal of the Call-  Its the weekend of Levetanna's 23rd birthday when she is fired from accidently flooding the entire store. She packs her bags and decides to move to Virgina where her cousin daniel lives. She finds a few homes to choose from but isn't quite sure. She decides to persue being a famous clothing designer.

Meeting the Mentor- Levetanna meets her cousin who tells her to buy her dream house even without a job.

Crossing the Threshold-  Levetanna gets a job at a local fashion magazine and moves into her dream home at the edge of a small forest. She loves her new home, its all she could of ever wanted. She soon discovers her dream house isnt quite a dream but more of a nightmare.

Tests, Allies, Enemies-  Levetanna meets her closest niebor phil and starts to develope feelings for him. she starts waking up in the middle of the night from strage sounds coming from the basement. she hears a clink, clink,clink sound every night. she turns on the lights and when she opens the basement door the sounds end untill the next night.

Approach-  Levetanna runs to a local library and does resaerch on her new home. she discovers her home had a terrible fire and was rebuilt. A little girl around twelve years old died in the fire and the childs parents ended up dying shortly after from a car accident.

Ordeal/Reward- Levetanna is asked on a date by the mysterious neighbor phil. She has the best date of her life and returns home and goes to sleep.  She wakes up again to the clinking noises.  She heads straight to the basement and walks down the long staircase to the wooden door. The noises get louder and louder then she puts her hand on the doornob and is burned. smoke comes out from underneath and the heat is getting hotter and hotter. she then wakes up in a pool of sweat.

The Road Back-   Levetanna discovers that the little girl perished in the basement. she was locked in and she searches for the answers to her demise. phil is getting closer to Levet but when ever he's in her house she starts to get a fever and burn up.  She asks nieghbors about phil and finds out that phil was the little girls brother.  She confronts him and asks why he didnt tell her. He tells her that the fire was his fault and that he locked her in the basement those years ago because she was pestering him. he had accidently turned on the stove and had his work papers on it.  He couldnt live with himself and moved and later dicovered his parents accident. He just wanted to forget everything.

Return with Ellxir- Levet tells him to forgive himself.  She wakes in the middle of the night to a little girl at the foot of her bed; she smiles and disapers.

Archetype 
Hero- Lavetanna
Mentor-  her cousin daniel
Treshold Guradian-  daneil
Herald-  ?
Shapeshifter-  phil
Shadow- ?
Trickster- phil

Leap Year

LEAP YEAR

Ordinary World - Amy Adams who plays Anna Brady lives in Boston and Stages apartments for Realtors. She is very good at her job and loves it. Her boyfriend Jeremy is a cardiologist.They are applying to live together in a high-class building, When one of her friends finds Jeremy coming out of a jewelry store, Anna thinks that he  is finally going to propose after a long four years.

Call to Adventure- and  Refusal of the Call-  Anna meets her father at a bar and tells him that Jeremy is going to propose and he is thrilled about it .and tells her about the old Irish tradition in which women are allowed to propose on February 29th. When Jeremy  gives her earrings instead of a ring she decides to listen to her fathers advice even though she thinks its totally lame. Jeremy leaves for a conference in Dublin and Anna thinks its perfect so she packs her vuton (suitcase) and gets on a Plan.

  

Meeting the Mentor- I think her father is also a mentor but The flight she is on she meets a priest and speaks to him about her entire ordeal.

Crossing the Threshold-   Bad weather causes the flight to take a turn and she lands in Wales.  Anna tries to take a boat but ends up in the small Irish town where she is now all by herself and has no idea how to get to Dublin. Anna Walks into a pub to find a taxi service and here she meets Declan who is oh my goodness gorgeous Irishman who agrees to drive her to Dublin on one condition, she pays him a large sum of money.

Tests, Allies, Enemies-  She learns from Declan that Ireland is a lot different than Boston and from random Irish men that there very superstitious and things have to be done on a certain day and time. They believe in Luck and bad luck and that she shouldn't start her journey just yet. She doesn't listen and Declan takes her on the ride of her life.

Approach-  Anna and Declan cant stand each other and end up getting the car stuck in water and getting introuble with men who stole her suitcase. Whitch sets her path to a train station. She misses the train and has to stay at a little bed and breakfast where she must pretend to be married to Declan in order to get the room. She gets in a whole mess of trouble and starts to slowly fall inlove with Declan along the way.

Ordeal/Reward- Anna finally gets to Dublin with Declan and meets Jeremy who Proposes sudenly on the spot. Declan laeves and she says Yes. After four long years Jeremt has finally given her the ring shes allways wanted and the apartment shes always wanted.

 

The Road Back- Anna discovers that Jeremy only proposed so they could get the apartment and she uses Declans 60 second what would you grab. The fire alarm goes off in the apartment and Jeremy chooses his work over her. She realizes that she was never first on his list.

Return with Ellxir- Anna takes a flight back to Iriland to meet Declan who has been through his own Journy by trying to save his small pub and meet his ex finace to get back his ring. She meets him and thinks shes been rejected when he finally comes to meet her by the edge of a cliff and tells her that he doesnt want to not make plans, he wants to make plans and right there on the spot asks for her hand in marriage. ofcourse she says yes and they live happily ever after.


Archetype /not sure if I got it right but this is what im thinking
Hero- Main Charater who goes through the Journy- Anna Brady
Mentor-  The priest and her father
Treshold Guradian- The train station/inn keeper
Herald-  Her friend I would think, brings up the fact Jeremy only asked her to get the apartment
Shapeshifter- Anna seams to change a lot in the film
Shadow- Jeremy
Trickster- Jeremy and Declan/Anna

Bryan Hearstone

Bryan Heartstone worked diligently in his parents large garden.  Weeding crops, dropping fertilizer, and watering wherever the ground looked dry, he would work for hours each day.  He had lived on his parents farm for twelve years now, since he was born, and farming was all he knew.  He could milk a cow faster than any of his friends, gather eggs, butcher any animal, and keep the crops growing during droughts.  Bryan knew that one day he would inherit the farm and take a wife, so he would make sure that the farm was the best, most thriving farm by the time he was old enough to take over.  Already at age twelve he was daydreaming of the day when he would begin to add onto the small farmhouse.  He wiped the sweat from his eyes and stared off into the horizon.  Off in the distance he could see something coming.  He ran inside and told his parents who spread the word throughout the town.  By the time the soldiers on their armored horses arrived everyone was waiting.  After the soldiers were done talking to everyone over half the boys were returning with them to the king's palace without any choice including Bryan.

Blurb it-evanescence my immortal

evanescence my immortal

This song is about anguish and sorrow. the person she loves ends up leaving and he leaves behind a broken heart full of pain. She can't forget all the pain that it's caused and time passes by and her feelings stay the same. She remembers that she would help him through all of his problems and now that he left she has no one.  She's now haunted by the life they had and memories of him. She cant come to face that fact that he's no longer there. He still owns her heart and she cant move on. This song has a great tune and rhythm with an amazing singer. Her voice is enchanting and this song is always lingering in the back of my mind. 

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus]

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

[Chorus]

BLURB IT-Old City Bar Trans Siberian Orchestra

Old City Bar Trans Siberian Orchestra

This song is a fantastic tale for Christmas that tells a story of hope, faith and charity.It starts in an old city bar on the night of Christmas Eve. A bar tender watches as a child walks into the bar and  he looks through the window and at the freezing wind and snow falling and spots a girl by a broken pay phone and asks why is she not home but states not that he cares. The little boy than answers I noticed If one could be home
They'd be all ready there. the bar tender than grabs some cash and heads across the street and calls for a cab.He did care.The girl is gone and so is the money but a wish was answered and a heart was touched, and the little boy disappeared. This song is a true Christmas miracle that teaches us of faith, hope and true Christmas giving.
 

In an old city bar
That is never too far
From the places that gather
The dreams that have been
In the safety of night

With its old neon light
It beckons to strangers
And they always come in
And the snow it was falling
The neon was calling
The music was low
And the night
Christmas Eve

And here was the danger
That even with strangers
Inside of this night
It's easier to believe
Then the door opened wide
And a child came inside
That no one in the bar
Had seen there before

And he asked did we know
That outside in the snow
That someone was lost
Standing outside our door

Then the bartender gazed
Through the smoke and the haze
Through the window and ice
To a corner streetlight

Where standing alone
By a broken pay phone
Was a girl the child said
Could no longer get home
And the snow it was falling
The neon was calling
The bartender turned
And said, not that I care But how would you know this?
The child said I've noticed
If one could be home
They'd be all ready there
Then the bartender came out from behind the bar
And in all of his life he was never that far
And he did something else that he thought no one saw
When he took all the cash from the register draw

Then he followed the child to the girl cross the street
And we watched from the bar as they started to speak
Then he called for a cab and he said J.F.K.
Put the girl in the cab and the cab drove away
And we saw in his hand
That the cash was all gone From the light that she had wished upon
If you want to arrange it
This world you can change it
If we could somehow make this
Christmas thing last
By helping a neighbor
Or even a stranger
And to know who needs help
You need only just ask
Then he looked for the child
But the child wasn't there
Just the wind and the snow
Waltzing dreams through the air
So he walked back inside
Somehow different I think
For the rest of the night
No one paid for a drink

And the cynics will say
That some neighborhood kid
Wandered in on some bums
In the world where they hid

But they weren't there
So they couldn't see
By an old neon star
On that night, Christmas Eve
When the snow it was falling
The neon was calling
And in case you should wonder
In case you should care

Why we're on our own
Never went home
On that night of all nights
We were already there

2ne1-Ugly BLURB IT

BLURB IT



Youtube-[MV HD] 2ne1 - Ugly [english subs+romanization+hangul] 

2ne1 is a Korean Group just to let you know.

BLURB--------UGLY

This song is Depressing, lets face it. Its got a great tune, great voices and rockin music but the lyrics are sorrowful. If you listen to the Lyrics or read the English subs, you can tell that this song is made for the broken hearted. The lyrics show girls who have lost hope in themselves and realize when they look in the mirror that they are not beautiful. They see only ugliness. In the Lyrics it says Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly. Someone else is in this small story and who ever it is is telling her that shes pretty but to herself shes not. she'll never be perfect or like that other girl. This song has no uplifting message at the end. It's a girl that has fallen into that black hole of lies thinking everyone else is the liar but she's only lying to herself.

This is an amazing song to get up and dance to, the lyrics crack me up and i sing along with them, it doesn't mean i believe in the words they sing.

[CL] I’m trying to smile brightly but
I don’t like it
I’m not pretty, I’m not beautifulOh oh oh oh x 2
[BOM] I’m trying to sing but
No one is listeningI’m not pretty, I’m not beautiful
Oh oh oh oh x 2
[DARA] Why am I this uglyWhat must I do for me to be able to smile brightly like you?
[MINJI] I’m getting angry again, why can’t I ever be perfect
I simply put the blame on my ugly appearance in this broken mirror
[BOM] Don’t look at me, I hate this feeling right now
I want to hide away somewhere, I want to escapeThis world is full of lies
[CL] I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty
I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly
[MINJI] Don’t tell me that you can understand me so easily
My ugly and crooked heart may even come to resent you
[BOM] Don’t force me to talk, I’m not right for you
The cold thorns inside that patronizing gaze suffocate me
[MINJI] Don’t come closer, I don’t even want your concern
I want to leave away to somewhere, I want to shout outThis world is full of lies
[CL] I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty
I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly
[DARA] All alone
I’m all alone x 2
There is no such thing as warmth
There is no one by my side
All alone
I’m all alone x 2
I’m always alone
There’s no such thing as warmth
Next to my side, there’s not even anyone to embrace me
[CL] I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty
I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

My Story A Halloween Tale

A Halloween Tale

 “Lily?  Lily? LILY?” a long whip like voice screamed in my ears, and then a loud crack hit my desk in front of my face.  I tumbled out of my chair, hitting my head hard against the crusty dirt coated carpet.  I looked around me, still weary and sleep deprived.  The substitute teacher was a strange person.  She held only one thing in her hand; a wooden ruler.  It was the only thing I could imagine that could make the cracking sound on my desk.  “Well?”  Well what?  I looked up at her and the odor of the carpet filled my lungs.  A rotten cheese and peppermint smell clung to my nostrils and I had to plug my nose.  “What’s wrong Miss. Kann?”  She asked, folding her arms as she did so.  “Nothing,” I said while standing and releasing myself from the bonds of a smelly death.  “Sit in your seat and pay attention, or I’ll send you to the principal’s office for falling asleep in my class.  I could only obey, and stick out my tongue when she had turned her back on me.”  I looked at the girl with the blond ponytail sitting next to me.  She was wrapping her pink polished fingers around her throat and sticking her tongue out.  I tried to muffle a choked laugh with my hand.

Our substitute teacher was a fifty or so year old woman with short white hair and the eyes that could turn you to stone.  Her skin sagged off her face although her nose stood straight and proud.  Her voice was raspy and her laugh was more of a cackle; chilling you to the bone.  She wore what could only be described as gypsy clothing.  A gold shawl covered her boney shoulders and her multicolored skirt reached all the way to her black pointed shoes.  She wore several rings on fingers, and as I said before, carried her wooden torture device.  She had only been here for a couple of days and already she was calling it her classroom.

The sub sat at the desk putting on her large glasses that hung around her stretched neck.  She reached for a pen and as she did looked straight at me with her snake like eyes.  “Miss Kann!  It doesn’t help your grade to be constantly observing me.”  I quickly looked down at my five page test.  I had circled three answers so far.  I took one quick glance at her and saw the Conner of her mouth curve into a wicked smile.  

I quickly circled answers at random and walked through the isle of desks and students to the substitute’s long judge desk.  I felt as if I was on trial.  The classroom was a dull grey in color with dark red speckled carpet and a few posters that promoted school rules.  A black board was set right behind the teacher’s desk with the words Miss Bigspy written in jumbo lettering.  Around thirty desks filled the small classroom; there was barely enough space for the two bookshelves that sad at the back.  The only life like color I could see was from the clothing the students wore.  This sub just made the whole room look even worse.  I set my paper down in front of her.  She took her eyes off of her book and slowly closed it.  She then set the book slowly aside and placed an old notebook on top of it.  I had barely managed to read two words off the color of her book; Black Magic.

“Miss Kann,” she questioned me, “you do know that you have failed by quickly circling the answers at random.  Am I correct?”  I just stared into the eyes of this hideous serpent.  How could she know?  “Lily if you hadn’t slept through the entire class you would have had enough time to finish the test.”  “I know,” I answered looking down in shame.  “ You might as well get used to me because I just received a message today that your former teacher has just resigned,” she said smiling through crooked teeth.  The principal asked me to stay for the rest of the year.  I stood there in shock; how would I bear any more of this torture?  The bell interrupted my thought, making me jump.  Everyone got up and left the class in a rush.  “You’re free to leave Lily,” she said sternly.   I quickly gathered all of my things and left the class in a rush.  “Lily, by the way,” she said making me stop before the door, “ I would appreciate it if your tongue stayed inside your mouth.”  I gasped.  My back was facing her, but I could feel her eyes boring into me.  She was probably smiling that eerie grin.  Her cackle only proved my suspicion, and I departed from my torture cell.

 Plot - underlined

Character-pink

conflict-green

Theme -orange

Setting -blue

Invisible Bars

 

 Invisible Bars 

The cage bird dreams

Of the wind,

Of the sky

A distant hill

Trees, a lawn downstream

 And the cage bird stays still

To claim the sky

To float on the winds current

To take the leap

For things unknown

Another breeze

He thinks of dreams

And the cage bird stays still

Does he dare to fly?

The sky sings his name

The sun,

The trees,

The distant hill

And the lawn downstream

Sing of him

And the cage bird stays still

The cage bird opens his throat

And sings

Sings of freedom

And of fear

He sings

Of things unknown

And the distance

He shouts freedom

He thinks freedom

The tune is heard

The cage bird stays still

His feet shout LEAP

His wings scream FREE

The sky sings his name

The trees, the distant hill

And the lawn downstream

Sing his name

Fear cages the bird

He sees through the bars

Thinks of clipped wings

Of feat tied

Of the unknown

Longing for sky

Longing for freedom

The cage bird dreams

And the bird stays still

 

He sings

Of freedom,

Of fear and

His feet stand

On a grave of dreams

Seeing freedom through narrow bars