Thursday, January 12, 2012

Paris

I waited for what seemed like hours
sitting by the sidewalk waiting for a train
a train that would take me to Paris

when it finally arrived I climbed on
I put my suitcase down and sat in my seat
the man next to me smiled
I asked where he was headed
his smile grew as he spoke
of Paris
I gazed out the window for what
seemed like forever
birds were flying and singing
I could tell they were free
free to fly to Paris
On my first day I got off the train
I was counting the weeks
the days and hours
the minutes and seconds
going by while in Paris
I could feel the fresh air
breath it in
feel the soft sun on my face
I couldn't believe my eyes
I was in Paris
I shopped and looked around
smiling at the faces
I looked at a nice shop window and
saw a nice little booklet
it read A Writers Paris
Paris is where I bought that book
I opened the book
nothing was inside
blank pages and not even lines
I took a pink pen from by bag
and started writing
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I couldn't sit still
I saw a cafe down a tiny street
people walking by
kids holding balloons
but I'll I could pay attention to was the smell
the smell of chocolate
I rushed to the cafe
sat down in  a yellow chair
pulled out my journal
and let down my hair
I sat reading and eating
not caring about anything because i was here
Paris was where I tasted chocolate
I watched a women with
curly blond hair
she was smiling
and running down the street
holding a book in her left
and a hat in her right
then she was out of sight
The next day I went to an
open field and started writing
writing down my entire
life's history
all the bad and the good
looking at the sky while
watching my memories go by
I was in Paris
I looked at the sites
took pictures while I walked
spoke to well almost everyone
for the next six days
I traveled around the city
taking photos and writing
down my thoughts
I was in Paris
I saved the best for last
I stood by the tower
gazing at its wonder
how far had I come
how difficult and exhilarating the ride
but I'm glad i got on
I was in Paris
I loved Paris
Paris was where I learned
to live
Wondering Paris
was like being in a dream
but now its time to leave
I've learned and can go
I walked the miles to the
station not wanting to get on
but the roads been fun
and its time to move on
I will miss u Paris

Monday, January 9, 2012

If you really knew me...

If you really knew me...

If you really knew me...
You'd know that I love being outside
and that I hate the cold,
That the only time I'm outside in the rain
is when I'm dancing
and you'd know that if I'm dancing
I'll start singing pretty quick,
but even though I hate getting my hair wet
and that I hate the cold
I'll be outside when it first snows

If you really knew me...
you'd know that I love nature,
that I'd go hiking everyday if i could,
that I'd have to reach the top of whatever
mountain I climb
so i could gaze at the view
but you'd know that I'm
afraid of heights
so I wouldn't go towards the edge
but I would sit for hours on end
just staring at the sky,
not caring about the time passing me by

if you really knew me...
you'd know that I love art
that I'd spend a whole day just thinking
of what my next masterpiece would be,
you'd know that i could think of
anything and call it art
because I'm a wacky sort of girl

If you really knew me...
you'd know that i love dancing crazy
but hate going to dances
that I'd rather stay at home
and read a good book
because i don't mind staying up,
that i could talk forever
that you'd have to slow me down
because its hard to understand
me when I start talking
of the things I love

If you really knew me...
You'd know that if I'm bored
you can find me outside
looking at the clouds
finding pictures of random things
and taking there picture
you'd know that I love animals
but I'm terrified of spiders
you'd know that I believe
in fairy tales,
that dreams come true
and know matter my trials
Ill make it through

If you really knew me...
you'd know that I love the night time
for i can see the stars and the moon
because the stars are my window to heaven
but you'd know that I'm scared of the dark
and of being alone
you'd know that i love writing poems
and telling ghost stories,
sitting by a fire
and calling to the lone wolf
but that's only if you really knew me
if only you knew me

Sunday, January 1, 2012

LOST


The Inspiration I received from the poem Wanderer
By Nabanita Paul
LOST
I'm a wanderer
i wander lonely, lonely in my thinking
lonely in my walking, always keeping my eyes ahead
never looking behind, never to remember what i left behind
i wander through the dark streets searching
searching for what i do not know for i am a wanderer

i am a wanderer
i wander a great distance
i expand my mind and look past whats just in front of my eyes
my eyes, my eyes do keep to wandering
never stopping, always looking forward
never taking my mind of the path that i wander on
always looking, always seeking
seeking what i truly don't know for
i am a wanderer

i am a wanderer
i wander lonely, lonely in my thinking
sometimes i feel my feet sinking
my mind slipping and I'm still wandering
wandering closer and closer to the unknown
always keeping my eyes forward never to look back
always seeking, for what i do not know

i am a wanderer
always keeping my eyes up
trying to see the distance
seeking for something that might never be found
but that is what i do,  i wander lonely on the path
the path that i keep to
never to leave
never to turn back
never to remember
the past is gone, erased
and i still wander

i am a wanderer
i wander lonely through the forest
the forest of forgetful dreams
forgotten wishes never to come true
a darkened path leading to damnation
a hell of my very making
i feel my feet sinking deeper and deeper
through the pit of despair
my mind is slipping
turning into a clock ready to stop ticking
and i am forgetting
forgetting what i was seeking
was i seeking for anything in the beginning
i know not

i only know i am a wanderer
i wanderer through the crowd
the faces always looking down
i wonder what they are thinking
for i don't think for myself anymore
i keep my eyes up and forward
never seeing those right in front of me
i am stuck on the path
seeking for what i know not
but i keep searching
i will keep searching
until my time runs out
until the ticking ends
and i am free
free to fall in my pit
free to enter what Ive created for myself
what i willingly created for myself

i am a wanderer
and i keep on wandering
wandering a great distance
seeking for the unknown
looking for a hopeless dream
forgetting everything meaningful
forgetting myself













Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Wanderer

Wanderer


As small as a child I was forbidden to soar Through the breath of very nature 
Thus barred my feet: yet my eyes not and they wander through every hill and 
cloud Searching for something.I know not....Beyond every horde of mortals I 
look out for thee In the land of hopes and dreams: a fantasy Where words are
 silenced The heart overwhelmed Torments of thoughts, still none to speak of....
 My expecting eyes, but lips sewn Yes.I perceive the anguish in your eyes 
Wondering, wishing something to be told But my feelings are beyond any word
 The silence creeps deep within And yet I hear your 'voice' The eyes dazed, 
I'm seeing you with my inner eyes...That long to perceive the golden hue 
But that is never found And they wander lonely as a bird: my eyes Under
 azure stretches of sky....
Nabanita Paul
Jealousy has never been a positive for me. Jealousy towards others shows distrust. 
When you are Jealous because of others talents then you are telling yourself that you're 
not good enough. This poem makes me Jealous. I'm not Jealous in the way that I don't
 think i can write something this good. I'm jealous because this poem being as short as 
it is has over a hundred different meanings. I'm jealous because this poem in all its 
grandeur is written by the soul. like a caged bird not being able to spread its 
wings and fly through all natures beauty. The wanderer dreamed of things unknown.
 The wanderer wished on stars through its cold bars. The wanderer looks at things 
at a different angle, seeing things that others don't. believing in things that cant be 
seen or heard. The wanderer is always looking for the perfect sky to take flight. 
The wanderer is always dreaming. Seeing things with the soul.


Monday, December 12, 2011

This is for you.....

This is for you.....
This is for you.....
you know who you are
if you don't have a single clue
this is just not the poem for you
This is for you.....

This is for all the broken hearts
This is for all the caged birds
This is for all the birds to afraid to fly
through the open cage door
This is for you

This is for all the fallen tears
This is for all who weep
This is for all who are seeking
something to believe in
something to hold
something to care about
Something to hope for
This is for you

This is for all the scars
This is for meaningless love
This is for all who wish on stars
This is for all the wasted efforts
This is for you

This is for all the stitches
This is for all the doubts
This is for all who close there eyes
who imagine something more
Something worth living for
This is for you

This is for the dreamers 
This is for the Believers
This is for not giving up
This is for not quiting
This is for still believing
This is for you


so keep the faith
keep the hope
keep believing
keep the dream
fly through the cage door
its open
you just have to leap
So this is for those who keep living
This is for you
This is for you :>


Sunday, December 4, 2011

Ghandhi well here it is




CURIOSITY DIDN'T QUITE KILL THAT CAT
sometimes its hard to think. its hard to play by the rules. why must i talk a certain way and look a certain way. no one is the same and everyone has their own voice. why must i keep my mouth shut to an opinion. why must i keep my head down and eyes closed. be curious and find yourself. i keep forgetting to be myself. I am me and that is who i am. i cannot be anyone else. if i choose to change i will still be me. i can be who i want to be and still be myself. when will we own ourselves completely? a lot of us don't even know who we really are. we search for ourselves for years and find nothing. why not look in the mirror. how come we have to have others tell us who we are? shouldn't we know ourselves? were all lost in the dark forest trying to find that one thing. that one thing is different for all of us. no one is on the same path. were all running for that finish line. well most of us. i guess  some are walking or crawling. but isn't that life. to breath air and not  know where you 're headed. don't go through the fog. turn on the head lights. its hard to think. its hard to be ourselves and speak up. its even harder when we don't know who we are.  be yourself, be who you wanna be and it wont be the last time I'll see the light. life cannot be measured, cannot be stored and should never make you bored. life is a gift and it should be exciting, happy, joyfully, wonderful, fulfilling, along with the stupid crummy gloom-ed days.
Just Live Life
its that simple